And my God shall supply all your need according to His riches in glory by Christ Jesus. Philippians 4:19
I have always been the type to fret over everything. I worry all the time. As my husband balanced the checkbook yesterday morning, my stomach tied into knots. It was lower than I expected. My mind began racing. How were we going to pull off vacation? How were our bills going to be paid? How were we going to make it?
He put his hand on my shoulder to try to calm me down, and I said a small prayer. I tried not to think about it. After all, here I was in church. My focus needed to be on Jesus right now.
As we left church that afternoon, we checked our other bank account. This is the one where child support is put. To be honest, I never have much faith when I roll up to the ATM for this one. There was nothing, of course. Eight weeks of nothing. I felt so discouraged and just didn’t understand how this could be.
Then the Holy Spirit whispered to me, “He is not your provider. I am.”
Wow. How true were those words and how convicted in that moment I felt because I haven’t been living that way.
God is my provider. No one else. No matter what we think the source is, it is ultimately God. He provides with a job. He provides when there doesn’t seem to be a way. He provides when we put our total trust in Him.
Matthew 6:33 says, “But seek first the kingdom of God and His righteousness, and all these things shall be added to you.” He will take care of us. I have to start putting my total trust in Him and stop relying on man to meet my needs.
Would the child support be nice? Absolutely, but I fully believe that as long as I’m giving credit in the wrong place that it won’t be there. God is my ultimate provider. No matter what. Even when things seem bleak, He shows up and shows out.
I pray today that I will put my full trust in Him always. I pray that no matter what is happening in my life, that I realize He is my source and provider. I choose to give it all to Him.