When Abram was ninety nine years old, the LORD appeared to Abram and said to him, “I am Almighty God; walk before me and be blameless.” Genesis 17:1
I have spent the whole week trying to put into words how my heart feels. On Monday, Thomas, Witten, and I drove to Vanderbilt Children’s Hospital to receive the results of Witten’s developmental testing. After spending the last eight months home with him, I was certain I was prepared for his diagnosis, but nothing can prepare you for the label.
Witten was diagnosed with autism spectrum disorder. Hearing those words stung my heart and I couldn’t stop the tears. The nurse practitioner went on to assure us that it wasn’t severe and gave us all kinds of resources. As we left that day, I even felt better.
But this week has been hard.
No matter how much my head knows that it’s just a label and we are doing everything we can to help him, my heart doesn’t want to accept it. I mourn for normalcy for my little boy. I mourn for normalcy of his young little life.
But then I am reminded of the God I serve. In the verse above, He reveals Himself to Moses as El Shaddai the LORD God Almighty. Hebrews 13:8 tells me, “Jesus Christ is the same yesterday, today, and forever.” So the same God who revealed Himself to Moses is the same God I serve. He is the Lord Almighty.
He is in control of this situation, and He is walking with me through it all. No, it’s not what I want for my son, but God has allowed His people to walk through things that they didn’t want since the beginning of time. I don’t understand it all, but I know He is an awesome God, and He will see us through it all.
I am choosing to trust Him on this journey as hard as it may be. I am choosing to serve Him even in this storm. No matter what you are facing today, you can bring it to your Savior. He is the Lord Almighty and will see you through.
Come to Me, all you who labor and are heavy laden, and I will give you rest. Matthew 11:28