So the Lord’s anger was aroused against Israel, and He made them wander in the wilderness forty years, until all the generation that had done evil in the Lord was gone. Numbers 32:13
The older I get the more I understand and relate to the Israelites. Just me? Okay. I get it. I can remember reading through my Bible and thinking they were complete idiots. Yeah, I know, kinda harsh, but I mean, God not only parted the sea once, but TWICE! (Exodus 14:21; Joshua 3:15-16) God provided for their needs, manna from heaven and their clothes didn’t wear out. So many times, God took care of His people, and yet they still forgot.
Relating a little more now? I know I do. So many times I forget how good God has been to me. I go through the motions of my faith without having any faith. And that’s where I’ve been lately.
It’s been a dry season. There’s not one thing in particular I could point to, except 2020 has been a trying year. Our church has been going through a lot, and when they decided to do a Bible study last night about hope, I didn’t want to go. Sometimes, in those moments of needing hope the most, we begin to shut it out and push it away. It took everything in me to go, and I’m glad I did.
Sometimes just talking about things and remembering God’s faithfulness can begin to give us hope. So many times as our test comes full circle into our testimony, we forget God’s faithfulness as we encounter a new test. And that’s where I am. I’ve forgotten.
I’ve forgotten that God healed Olivia who was never supposed to be born alive. I was promised by man she would be stillborn, but God gave her life!
I’ve forgotten that even when things looked bleak in my finances, God always provided.
I’ve forgotten that I am blessed with so much more than I need.
I’ve forgotten that God has restored my past, and He is using my present.
I’ve forgotten that Jesus bore it all on the cross for me.
Plain and simple. I’ve forgotten. I’ve forgotten His goodness in my life and through my circumstances. I’ve looked to other things to fix the situation or make me feel better. I’ve prayed meaningless prayers, and set my thoughts on things of the world.
Philippians 4:8 says, “Finally, brethren, whatever things are true, whatever things are noble, whatever things are just, whatever things are pure, whatever things are lovely, whatever things are of good report, if there is any virtue and if there is anything praiseworthy—meditate on these things.”
So today, I choose to change my thought process. I choose to set my thoughts on things of the Lord. I choose to remember. I choose to remember His goodness, faithfulness, and trustworthiness. I choose to remember.